Hi, everybody.
If you read my last post, you read that I TKO’d the guy I fought yesterday. Pretty cool feeling. But this morning I woke up and thought instantly, “you need to slow down”. My body is tired, my mind is tired, and my days run together. Maybe my routine is smacking me in the face and I’m not even acknowledging it? Who knows.
I do know I need to slow down. Take some more time to breathe everything in. I know this because my irritability is at an all-time high. If you ask me the same question more than once, I get angry. That’s not good. Not good at all. And it showed yesterday as I took out ALL of my anger on the poor guy I was boxing.
Not a bad place to take your anger out on someone, but still need to adjust my internal dialogue so I don’t have that anger, ya know?
Internal dialogue is something else. It’s a never-ending battle, at least that’s what it feels like. Some people say you can control it and be friends with your internal self (yes I sound crazy acting like they’re different from the you-you) but it’s true. Our internal dialogue says things our own selves would never think to say out loud. I’d love to be able to conquer that internal dialogue and think more positively about myself. That’s the goal for this week. Well, the second goal.
Goal 1: Slow down.
Goal 2: “Re-parent” myself by thinking more positively about my actions.
Oh, and have you thought about slowing down recently? Take a breath.
I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.
The Two Sides of Me 