Somewhat of a Milestone, Somewhat of a Brag

Hi, everybody!

OK so yeah, this blog might be a little big of a brag. I knew I could do what I set out to do yesterday, but I had no idea it would be THAT easy.

So what did I do?

Nothing crazy. I went for a run. I decided seven miles is the goal and the pace needs to be at a max of eight minutes. I ended up easily running the seven and getting right around seven minutes and thirty seconds as an average. AND GUESS WHAT? I think I could hit seven minutes next time. We’ll see. My final mile was sub-seven, so I feel pretty confident.

Now, here’s the problem. I’m 30 and I haven’t ran that long of a distance in long while. MY BODY HURTS. My legs feel like cement getting jackhammered. But I’m proud of myself and wow, the sunset running around the lake was something special last night. And here’s another “guess what”: I went on the run with someone I care about. Now, she ended up being about fifteen minutes behind me, but she absolutely killed the run, too. I am a man over six feet with long legs – hard to keep up with me.

But yeah, today is a lifting day and a boxing day. Tomorrow will either be sparring or a rest day. IF tomorrow isn’t a rest day, Friday most definitely will be.

What challenges have you put in front of yourself recently? Have you dominated them? I hope you’re challenging yourself every single damn day. It’s worth it. Trust me.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.

Reminder to Slow Down

Hi, everybody.

If you read my last post, you read that I TKO’d the guy I fought yesterday. Pretty cool feeling. But this morning I woke up and thought instantly, “you need to slow down”. My body is tired, my mind is tired, and my days run together. Maybe my routine is smacking me in the face and I’m not even acknowledging it? Who knows.

I do know I need to slow down. Take some more time to breathe everything in. I know this because my irritability is at an all-time high. If you ask me the same question more than once, I get angry. That’s not good. Not good at all. And it showed yesterday as I took out ALL of my anger on the poor guy I was boxing.

Not a bad place to take your anger out on someone, but still need to adjust my internal dialogue so I don’t have that anger, ya know?

Internal dialogue is something else. It’s a never-ending battle, at least that’s what it feels like. Some people say you can control it and be friends with your internal self (yes I sound crazy acting like they’re different from the you-you) but it’s true. Our internal dialogue says things our own selves would never think to say out loud. I’d love to be able to conquer that internal dialogue and think more positively about myself. That’s the goal for this week. Well, the second goal.

Goal 1: Slow down.

Goal 2: “Re-parent” myself by thinking more positively about my actions.

Oh, and have you thought about slowing down recently? Take a breath.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.

100 Freakin’ Days

Hi, everybody.

Welp, we finally made it. We’ve hit the 100-day streak, baby! We originally set out for a week, then we pushed it to 30. There were whispers, “there’s no chance he makes it.” but HA, how wrong were they? Then we hit fiddy. I thought we were done there but nope, the fingers kept tip-tapping.

75. No way.

80. Must be running out of gas (definitely was).

90. So close yet so far.

95. End soon? Nothing to really write about.

100. Here we are. Here we freakin’ are. (I’ll stop using that word now.)

I’ve been thinking about this moment for, well, like just yesterday. Not going to lie to you lot. I didn’t think this far ahead. So now that we are at 100, I feel like I should post a reflection on what this accomplishment means to me. Or better yet, what this accomplishment has taught me along the way. I might pull from some blog posts if I gain the courage to read back that far (I cringe at my writing like most writers). We’ll see what this turns into. It’s always a surprise, isn’t it? I think we should keep it that way. Especially on the last day (spoiler, I will be moving to a post a week, maybe two).

OK, so what first happened to start all of this? I think I was just starting my new job, yep, looks like it was that. It was extremely slow the first month or so at the new gig, so it makes sense I decided to start typing nonsense every day to fill time.

Ah, the 30-day post! And of course, I posted it from my phone. Sheesh. What did I write about here? Ah! I established that I built the habit by the 30-day mark. That was a huge moment. Made me feel like I could keep going and going and going, and well, look where we’re at now.

Some themes I’m noticing as I look back: Gratitude, awareness, and doggos. Oh, constant mood changes, too. It’s almost as if the name of this blog actually makes sense. The mood changes, reflecting on them now, make me feel… alive. I mean this blog wouldn’t exist without my little bit of crazy (or lotta bit). I’m grateful for that. This blog helped me become aware of my mood changes and aware of all of the things I should be grateful for. Am I grateful all of the time? Hell no, but I’m working towards it. This blog proves that.

Some girl problems happen throughout the rest of the way. Oh, I also snuck in “quote days”, which were really just lazy days for me. Yes, I made sure to provide quotes that I actually like and resonate with me, but simply enough I just didn’t have anything to write to you lot on those days. I hope you appreciated the quotes as they were filled with much more wisdom than I possess, ha!

So this is the end, eh? We’ll see. Now I know I can quite a bit of what I set my mind to. This is day 100, baby. Day 100. That’s insane. Last year I thought blogging was somewhat stupid, now I’m slapping myself in the face for not starting sooner.

I highly recommend putting your thoughts into something, whether it’s actual conversation or written word, I highly recommend it. It’s kept me at ease, kept negative thoughts at bay, and helped me grow significantly over the past 3-4 months. Well, shit, I guess over the past year. I started this thing last July (2020). I didn’t think we’d make it this far. I thought I’d be dead. I guess I thought wrong. Thank you for helping.

Don’t worry, this isn’t goodbye. Will you see a post from me tomorrow? Maybe. But I do want to move to posts with more substance, so as I mentioned above, we might move to a 1-2 blog posts a week schedule. Still TBD.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for being such great readers. For tagging along this entire time. For making me feel heard. You lot are something special.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.

Goal Met

Hi, everybody!

Writing from my phone today. You’ll never guess. I’m busy again today.

WordPress does this thing which notifies you when you’re on a blog post streak. I set out a month ago to knock out 30 in 30 days, and just yesterday I was notified from my last post that I did in fact achieve that goal.

So I guess I’m done here. Thanks for reading.

I’m kidding (you could probably tell). There’s less pressure on me from myself to write now, but I think I’ve built a good habit of making sure I get something down on this site.

I need to come up with a list of topics moving forward. I still just sit down and start typing. Let’s see… what would be good to go over? Let’s try gratitude.

Today I’m grateful for many things: Friendships, family, steady job, boxing (my passion), coaching (having an issue here but still grateful), the food in my fridge, the water in my outdated water cooler, MY DOGS, really so so much. My life is pretty dang cool. So is your life. Please remember that.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.