Fire Within

Hi, everybody.

That title felt super nerdy to write. It’s fitting. I am a nerd.

What’s the title mean, though? Well, as usual, today I thought I was down and out. I even had the thought “Well, once I’m done coaching tonight, it’s just the same old day the next day”.

I hate having that thought. It happens too often.

But I changed it around for myself. I took a quick nap, shook loose a bit, and made sure to reach out to some friends. You know what I found out? Talking to people helps–even if it’s not about the issues you’re experiencing at that very moment. Sometimes the distraction can build you back up. Today, that’s what happened. I’m rejuvenated, fired up to go into training. Fired up to work on someone’s resume this evening. And somewhat fired up for tomorrow.

Will I have that same damn thought tomorrow? Maybe. But if I do, I’ll remember writing this–and I should be OK then.

Things have been scary recently. They really have. I don’t know if I’m just lonely or what, but a lot of my old self is resurfacing. A lot of anger, anonymous from the source, and a bunch of misdirected emotions. Something tells me I’m in for a rough month, but hey, let’s give it a shot and at least see what happens, yeah? It’s not the end of the world.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.