I leave tomorrow, but tomorrow is mostly filled with plane travel. Long, long trip back to the good ol’ Midwest. Let’s go over some of the highlights of yesterday.
As I mentioned in my last post, I’ve struggled throughout this trip, but I’ve had some bright moments.
I met a friend, & she’s going through similar things that I’m going through. We initially got together for sex, but that soon changed. She’s become a friend in a very short period of time & I’m happy to say that I think we’ll stay in contact going forward. It’s always nice to run into genuine people. Believe me, there’s more out there than ya think. Talk to people, listen to people, you’ll be surprised.
A few things about Portland, Maine, if you ever make it out here.
- It’s an amazing town with plenty of culture, plenty of good food, & plenty of cute dogs.
- If you love breakfast foods, make sure to stop by Hot Suppa on Congress St. – flippin’ amazing.
- Watch out for the park – I guess Portland shut down many of the homeless shelters here during the pandemic. You’ll run into quite a few folks that want nothing more than your wallet & to yell profanities at you. Be careful, but be caring.
- Ask the locals for advice on where to go next, where to eat, where to grab a drink, & where to go next.
- Get a lobster. I’m telling you, you can’t go wrong with a lobster up here. (Pictures to follow)
- Take pictures. It’s such a cute town with so much history. Oh! Head down to Cape Elizabeth. Just a 20 minute drive or so.
- Make sure you go to Peaks Island. It’s just a 20 minute ferry ride & wow, the views are something else. (Pictures to follow)
As for where I’m heading next for my final night, I really don’t know. I would like to find a cabin & finally disconnect like I mentioned at the start of this trip. It’s been hard to disconnect because of my mental strength right now, but I’ve been doing my best. That’s all we can ever ask for, & it’s good to remind yourself of that from time to time.
A trip by myself might not have been the smartest choice. I could’ve used some company while up here, but I made the most of it. Always make the most of it. Get out of bed when you’re feeling down. Get outside. Just start walking – you’ll find something to take your mind off of things, even if it’s just for a moment. That moment means more than the rest of the day combined.
Well, looks like my breakfast is coming right up. Time for me to sign off. I don’t know how much I’ll write when I get back, really I don’t. I’m starting to fade more & more each day. My anxiety is through the roof at all times & I can’t seem to fight it much anymore. I hope some fight comes back in me. I also hope that I can gain some weight back soon, it’s getting scary to look at myself in the mirror. I feel weak both mentally & physically. Can’t wait to try the gym again when I’m back home. I also can’t wait to see my dogs. Boy, do I miss them.
I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.
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