I Just Feel Like It

Hi, everybody.

Today’s been exhausting (in a good way) and it’s flown right past! Soon I’ll be off to training/coaching (next fight is November 6).

So why am I writing to you lot today? I really don’t know. It’s almost as mysterious as this allergic reaction happening on my face (The doc just said to put coconut oil on it…). I don’t have much to talk about, really. I just felt like I should check in and say hi, maybe see how you’re doing, and go about my day.

So, how are you?

If you were to ask me that question, I’d say pretty damn good. I’m not the best I’ve ever been but I am being the best person I can be at this time. And that’s important to note: AT THIS TIME. I’ve done a much better job of staying in the moment recently – maybe that’s why my mental health has been a bit better over the past week or so. Hm.

Writing is cool, isn’t it? I never thought about that till just now. Writing is so damn cool.

I wish you the best. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.

Feelin’ “Blah” Again

Hi, everybody.

Welp, this is why the site is called “The Two Sides of Me” because guess what?! I’m back in the dumps. Why? No fucking clue. Can I get out of it? What do you think I’m trying to do here?!

I know I’m in control of myself now. I can push myself through these “blah” days and fuck, that feels amazing. Each word I’m typing here is freeing me of that negative mindset, that mindset that I’m not good enough for today. Writing is so damn powerful.

But I’d love to find out why I feel this way so very often. What am I doing the night before to make me wake up in such a slump? Or is it something I’ll just have to deal with the rest of my life? I think it’s that. I think I’ll be dealing with this poo for the rest of my life… but to be honest, I’m OK with that. I know I’m strong enough to push through and if I’m not, I have a support system to back me up. I’m blessed. I’m grateful.

What about you, though? Are you taking a moment each day to check in on yourself to see how you’re really doing? Not your Instagram, not your Twitter, but your real life. How are you actually doing? If your blood pressure spikes reading that question, take a deep breath. You’re not fucked. You’re just aware now. That’s powerful.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.

30 and Fully Vax’d

Hi, everybody!

My 30th birthday was fantastic. Worked all day but thoroughly enjoy working. I was finally able to make sales calls again and I followed it up with some wonderful boxing coaching and training. You lot probably think that’s all I do. It kinda is. But I love it.

But I have a girlfriend now. So after work we grabbed some Thai food and relaxed. It was a perfect evening. Oh, I also had time to get on vidjie games and absolutely own some noobs.

I’m a nerd. A 30-year old nerd. And I love it.

Today I received my second vaccination (Pfizer gang). Glad to get it, happy to not talk about it the rest of my existence. If you’re an anti-vaxxer, I don’t care. If you’re a pro-vaxxer, I don’t care. You do you. Please and thank you.

Today calls for a nap. Will I get it? Who knows. But I’d love a nap. Other than that, my mind is kind of blank today and it’s… refreshing. I think I’ll log off now.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.