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Hi, everybody!

I’m back! My dogs love it. I have a 40 second clip of them freaking the hell out when I got home. One of my friends tells me one of my dogs sings when I get home. I don’t know if I’d call that singing, but eh, she’s definitely happy. I also have a picture of a completely destroyed couch which I noticed AFTER all of the excitement. Oh well. One is just a puppy. That’ll happen.

That’s not to say I didn’t flip a biscuit a bit when I saw the couch. Luckily I was home so I was able to collect myself, then head to the gym to let out some frustrations that arose from airport people and well, the couch.

But man, it feels good to be back. I know I finally have a “home”. My last house and location didn’t feel like home. This does. It’s a good feeling.

Now I move into a week of nothing but boxing. I don’t start my new job till the 19th, so I’m planning on making next week very, very fun. Lots of reading, maybe some hiking, and definitely dog parks. I’m excited. Oh, and I won’t wake up till at the latest 8 AM. Probably closer to 9 AM like I did today. Feels good.

So now being back home, even if I was only gone for a short time, I need to catch up with some things. Check my finances, pay some bills, clean the house, do laundry, etc., but I get to do this all at home. I’m excited about that.

I’m excited for a lot of things, really. If you would have asked me what I’m excited about six months ago, I would’ve been speechless. It’s a priceless feeling to be excited, especially about so many things.

I really don’t have much to touch on today. I really do hope you’re taking good care of yourself. Taking action when needed and giving yourself a break when needed. Balance is very important. I know, I know, it’s hard for people like us to find balance. But it’s not impossible.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.

Today Feels Different

I don’t want to get ahead of myself, but I feel pretty damn good today. It feels like a new day with actual opportunities in front of me. It feels like a new week with plenty planned out to keep me busy. I feel refreshed, I’m back to eating, & I’ve had a couple good gym sessions in the past couple of days.

Again, I don’t want to get ahead of myself, but I feel pretty damn good.

What’s brought me to this point? Probably a mixed bag of my travels, my friends, my dogs, & my general awareness of my mental health. The normal stuff. It feels good… for a lack of better term… to feel normal again. The bags are gone from under my eyes, my smile is back, & I’m back to singing in Zoom meetings.

Again, can’t get ahead of myself.

Today I get to see one of my best friend’s newborn child for the very first time in person. Am I pumped? Hell yes I’m pumped. Oh, there’s a great soccer match on later today, too. Am I pumped for that? Hell yes I’m pumped. Would I have been pumped last week, or hell, even two days ago? No, but things change. Sometimes drastically.

Can’t get ahead of myself.

Ah, screw it. I’m happy today. That’s what matters. Live in the damn moment, will ya?!

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.

Balance & Other Thoughts

If you’re anything like me, you work yourself down to the bone. I mean even today is a good example. It’s 5 PM CST & I haven’t given myself a moment to take a bite of anything outside a few ripe cherry tomatoes in the backyard garden.

But days like today are good. You just need to make sure you give yourself days that aren’t like this. If you can do both, well, I think you’re on the right track. At least that’s what I’ve been told by 10-15 therapists.

Balance takes place in many aspects of our lives, whether it’s work, love, friendship, traveling – really anything.

My father always told me one thing, well two. I’ve listened to him, but haven’t done the best in acting like him after listening if I have to admit.

  1. Don’t fall into debt
  2. Too much of one thing isn’t a good thing (cough, cough… balance)

Yeah, he ripped it off from Twain, I know. It’s still better to hear those words from your father than it is to hear it from good ol’ Twain.

So you might be asking yourself, “Well hey now, you just told us that you worked yourself too hard today & doesn’t that mean you don’t have balance?” WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT? I’m here, writing, and this is something I love. This isn’t work. This is that balance.

Thanks for reading, really any of you out there. It means quite a bit to me. I sometimes start writing & have no clue what I’m going to write.
Example A: What you just read.

I wish you well. Try not to beat the shit out of yourself.